Kim's Prayer

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed." --2 Corinthians 4:8-9

Friday, February 02, 2007

My fight is back

As most of you know, Mark and I traveled to Houston this past week for my three month checkup. As good as I have been feeling, I had no reason to believe that my news would be anything other than good.

Well, good news is not exactly what we got. My cancer has come back and come back it has. It has spread to both of my lungs and is back in the original place around my collarbone. It is small right now, but very active. The plan is to start an oral chemo and then every 2 weeks along with the chemo, I will do a drug called Avastin intravenously. Avastin is not a chemotherapy but a drug that helps to block what the cancer is feeding off of.

The plan right now is to travel back to Houston in two months do all the scans again and see where we are. My cancer will never be cured, but there are good chances of controlling it. That is my prayer right now, that we can contain it.

I will tell you no one is more surprised than I am. Mark and I were shocked to say the least. My children know nothing right now, but we plan to be very forthright with them. I want to be honest about the outcome of this whole thing, and in the mean time, will be praying for a miracle. God is in the business of miracles and after all Romans 8:24b, 25 NIV says " But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."

I will continue to blog how I'm feeling. These drugs I will be taking should not make me to sick. One thing we are going for here is quality of time, not quantity. We have all seen the wondrous ways our Saviour Jesus Christ has revealed himself through this whole journey and I have no doubt that our experience this time will be no different. So lets sit and watch how our Saviour reveals himself this time. It will be an emotional and spirit filled time to let God show us "The Great I Am."