My fight is back
As most of you know, Mark and I traveled to Houston this past week for my three month checkup. As good as I have been feeling, I had no reason to believe that my news would be anything other than good.
Well, good news is not exactly what we got. My cancer has come back and come back it has. It has spread to both of my lungs and is back in the original place around my collarbone. It is small right now, but very active. The plan is to start an oral chemo and then every 2 weeks along with the chemo, I will do a drug called Avastin intravenously. Avastin is not a chemotherapy but a drug that helps to block what the cancer is feeding off of.
The plan right now is to travel back to Houston in two months do all the scans again and see where we are. My cancer will never be cured, but there are good chances of controlling it. That is my prayer right now, that we can contain it.
I will tell you no one is more surprised than I am. Mark and I were shocked to say the least. My children know nothing right now, but we plan to be very forthright with them. I want to be honest about the outcome of this whole thing, and in the mean time, will be praying for a miracle. God is in the business of miracles and after all Romans 8:24b, 25 NIV says " But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently."
I will continue to blog how I'm feeling. These drugs I will be taking should not make me to sick. One thing we are going for here is quality of time, not quantity. We have all seen the wondrous ways our Saviour Jesus Christ has revealed himself through this whole journey and I have no doubt that our experience this time will be no different. So lets sit and watch how our Saviour reveals himself this time. It will be an emotional and spirit filled time to let God show us "The Great I Am."
posted by Joni McNabb @ 3:26:00 PM
43 Comments:
Dear Kim,
Mike and I continue to pray for you. We are absolutely shocked with your news. But, God is still in the miracle business and that is what we are praying for.We have called all our prayer groups and they are praying. I don't know what is ahead for you, but I KNOW God is walking with you and Mark through this deep valley. Mike and I are walking with you in prayer and spirit. PLEASE let us know if there is anything we can do. Mike wants you to know that he is available to come stay with the kids at any time. We are just a phone call away.
I love you so much!
Margaret
I was devastated to hear your cancer had come back again. I have been praying for you and now I will continue praying. Gods power has worked in you and I believe it can work again. I love you and I hope you get better.
Your Friend
Caroline Ezell
Kim,
Love you and miss you. You are so precious. Keep fighting. I thought of you as I was tucking Jack into bed tonight and we sang "Jesus Loves Me". Know that we are singing God's glory and praying for you always.
Amy
Kim,
We prayed for you today in our class. Robbie and I will continue to ask God to heal you and strengthen you for this fight. The verse I thought to pray for you is 2 Corinthians 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness." When you are weak I pray that God's grace will give you strength and carry you through each day.
In His Grace,
Stacey Johnson
Kim,
You crossed my mind today and I decided to look at your blog page. I was so shocked by the news. I will be praying for you everyday! If there is anything I can do to help you or your family, please let me know.
Gina Roberts
Kim,
We will continue to lift you and your family up in prayer. I am so glad Jesus is holding your hand through it all. Aren't we glad we can TRUST HIM no matter what the circumstances?! He is in control in good times and bad. Praying that you,Mark and your kids will know just how much God loves you all. Bridget
Hi Kim...I already said a prayer for you this morning. It was so good to see you at Janis'. You are an amazing soul!!! HE is amazing. I will be praying for you.
Love, Karen Sage
Kim, Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. I'll talk to you soon-Christi
Kim,
How shocked and truly saddened I was to hear your news from brother John today. I continue to lift you up to the Lord and beg him for complete healing for you. Please know that we are praying for you, Mark and the children daily. May you have peace within your soul during this extremely difficult walk. Much love.
Stacey Orr
Kim,
We were truly shocked to hear your news. Just wanted you to know we are thinking of you. You, Mark and the children are in our prayers daily. - Mark & Karen Jones
Dear Kim,
I'm so sorry to hear your news. I'm moved to tears to hear what you're dealing with so soon again. Thank you for exhibiting such trust in God. I'll keep you and Mark in my prayers, along with your children.
I know how difficult it is. But you can beat this back again. Hang in there. Keep fighting.
Scott Huffman
(friend of Diana Nix's)
Kim...I met you at Janis' b-day party. Everyone was so happy to see you and I told you that it was like you were famous. Well you should be for the awesome way you are fighting this fight. People sometimes say I don't know what to do except pray...and really that is the first and best thing to do. My family and I will be praying for you, your family and your healing everyday!
God Bless YOU...Lauren
Kim, Just checked your sight and was so shocked by the news. I'm praying for you down here in LR!! I think of you and your sweet family often. God is good and His LOVE endures forever!
Erin Conner
Hi Kim,
My heart was so sad to hear your news, but I rejoice in your strength and faith in Christ. You are an amazing witness to the power and love of God to all of us. I will continue to pray for you and your family, for peace and strength.
A friend of mine from work has been following your blog. Last year, his wife had too many tumors to count on her liver. They also have a tremendous faith in Christ and prayed for her recovery. She is doing so well. Her tumor markers are near normal now. I tell you this because when he says he understands, he really does. And she is continued proof of the miracles God can perform. I will continue to pray for your healing!
Much love to you and yours.
Diana Nix
Kim....hey girl....just heard today about your results....just wanted to remind you that I am still here for anything you need...you are so loved.....I still believe that you are one of the strongest people I know.......your strength is not just in your body....but in your heart....your mind... and in your spirit......you will fight your way through this.....you and your family have been and will always be in my prayers.....Leigh Ann
Hi Kim. We're here for you! You are such a special person! Let us know when we can get Decker and Lehman together to play! They always have so much fun. I'll be ready for a lunch-date, too. Anytime... I'll call you soon. Let me know if you have any drug questions.. :) I'm always happy to help. Know that we're praying for you everyday.
Much love.. Kristy
Wishing you love and happy days ahead with your family and hoping you feel the love in your heart from all of us who have been touched by your grace and strength. Cindy W.
Kim,
Please know that I have been praying for you and I lift you and the family up to our great Heavenly Father. I was sad to hear the news of your latest visit. You are loved by so many, and an inspiration to all of us! You will continue to be in our prayers daily. Jodie Haynes
Kim, Words cannot express how sorry I was to hear of your recent results. We will be praying for you, we still believe in miracles and complete healing. Please let me know if there's anything I can do, Seth would love to have Jackson over anytime! We love you and will continue praying. Allison Moon
Kim, Heard the news yesterday..Jim and I started praying immediately and will continue to do so daily. Wasn't sure what to say when I called, just wanted you to know that I care. Teresa D.
Kim, I know we don't know each other well but I heard your news this weekend and started praying for your miracle immediatly. I will coninue to pray for God's healing for you and strength and courage for your entire family as you face this battle.
LeAnne I.
Hey Mrs. Kim!
I was soooo sad when I heard about the news. Please know that i love you and that God is in control. I am praying for you everyday! All I can say is just keep the faith! I have known you my whole life and have always known that you are a strong Christian. I could never imagine what it is like to go through all of this. But when i think of all the people that are suffering with sickness is just to pray. God is in control.... just keep the faith.
i love you lots,
abbie
Kim
We heard about your news in sunday school this past Sunday and Todd and I will both be praying for you. I know that this seems like such a huge mountain, but God moves mountains like pebbles. We will continue to pray for your "mountain" and can't wait to see God's grace through you.
Todd and Leigh Anne Rainey
Kim,
I just want to share that we miss seeing you at church. I know your family has been through a rough time, but His grace is always sufficient. We haven't forgotten you and will keep praying for you.
Mike and Kristen Packard
P.S. Kyle says hi to Oliver
Hey Mrs. Kim!
How are u feeling? Please keep in mind that i am always praying for you! My class and friends pray for u everyday! I love you!
Love ya,
Abbie
Kimmie Sue,
Hang in there girlie-God is waiting for the perfect time to show us he is the all-powerful! You are in my prayers sweetie! Teresa Gavan
Kim,
You are so loved!! Although you didn't choose this as your story God is using it in so many ways. Because you choose to trust God others are blessed beyond measure. As you delight yourself in the Lord may he give you the desires of your heart. We will continue to ask, beg, plead, for your healing and trust.
Sebrena Coleman
Emily's mom
Kim: just spoke with Mary and like everyone else I too am stunned,but you are not defeated. I still am beleiving that God will take care of you and lift you up from this. We will all be praying for you and your healing even sronger this time.
We love you, Shirley and family
Hey Mrs. Kim!
I found a good verse.
Philemon 1:4-6
I always thank my God as I remember you in my prayers, because I hear about your faith, so that you will have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ. Please keep in mind that I am praying for you and that I Love You Lots!
Love,
Abbie
Hey, Kim. We had an old-fashioned John Wesley "love feast" at church this past Sun. nite in honor of Valentine's Day. During the evening we heard some personal testimonies about God's goodness and His grace. We closed the "party" with the song "In This Very Room." So many memories associated with your family flooded my mind and heart. It was in that very room that you were hugged and loved as a toddler and in that very room that your friends gathered to pray for your mom's healing and your sister's healing and your father's ministry. Your dad is a firm believer in the healing power of God through Jesus Christ; he's just a firm believer is God, Jesus Christ, and the Hold Spirit, period! And I do think that belief has passed on to you and your family. How wonderful and what a testimony you have for Jesus! Continue to share that love and watch it (the sharing) bolster and cause that love to grow. Bro. Paul Strang - who was under your dad's teaching, too - is always telling us in the congregation to "speak the word" because spoken words have tremendous power. Love you and yours so very much, and we're not throwing in the towel. The Word tells us to be persistent, so, persistent we will be!! Shirley & I will see your mom & dad as well as Karen & her brood this afternoon...can't wait! Love you all. Blanche
For this reason, since the day I heard about you(Kim), I have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. And I pray this in order that you(Kim) may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strenthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you(Kim) to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. For he has rescued us( Bev and Kim) from the dominion of darkness and brought us(Bev and Kim) into the kingdom of the son he loves, in whom we(Bev and Kim) have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.
Colossians 1:9-14.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith devolops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
James 1:2-3,12
I love you sweet Kim. I had these verses on my mind becuse of a bible study that I am taking. My homework was to read Colossians and James. So I pulled scriptures from the books that I am studing. I love your faith, your patience, your strength and your hope. I have watched you grow in your faith over these last two years. You were the one that God used to help pull me back out of a deep dark depression. I would sit and read your blogs in the middle of the night just crying. I wanted want you had spiritually. I prayed and begged our Lord, Jesus Christ to heal me. I needed healing in my emotions and in my heart. Thank you sweet Kim for your blogs. You have touched me and so many others. You have ministered to us through your journey with the Lord. You could have just crawled in the bed and stayed there like I did for so many months. Thank you for your strength to fight the good fight and to believe and to pray. Thank you for opening up your heart and letting us experience this journey with you. I've said this before and I'll say it again and again,"YOU ARE MY HERO!!"
I love you,
Beverly
Dear Kim--
I have thought of you often since I read your recent news. Thank you so much for this blog. I really appreciate that you have allowed your admirers near and far to know what's going on in your life. Your faith and strength through this has been phenomenal. I hope this finds you feeling well. "Hi" to Mark and all of your family.
Love, Nancy Ledbetter
hey Kim,
I've had you on my heart a lot recently, and God has really been prompting me to pray for you... but I had no idea what was going on and I am sooo shocked and upset to hear the news. We will pray like crazy.
Courtney Childers-Thornton
Kim,
I sooo enjoyed Wednesday night! You are at the top of my prayer list. Candace
Kim,
My heart-felt prayers are with you as you face the battle once again. I am struck by how many wonderful, caring Christian friends have posted. Rest in their love and take comfort in knowing that their prayers are surely being heard. Let them help you in any way they can. They need it more than you.
I can't wait for the day that this horrible disease is eliminated from the face of the earth.
You are in my prayers each day.
Suzanne Callahan
Kim,
I read the other day that David's victory was not in that he fought well, but in that he believed well. You are victorious in both as you continue to fight and believe well.
When I saw you and Wendy the other day I had not heard of your most recent battle. But what I saw were two friends that God had graciously reunited who were living part of that day together. While we often think we know what today or next week or next year will bring, we do not. Our gift is this day God has given and our calling to glorify Him.
My prayer for you is to continue to fight well, believe well and live well.
But Zion said, "The LORD has forsaken me, And my Lord has forgotten me." "Can a woman forget her nursing child, And not have compassion on the son of her womb? Surely they may forget, Yet I will not forget. See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands; Your walls are continually before Me." Isaiah 49:14-16
Praying that you feel God's love and peace surrounding you and yours,
Erin
Dear Kim,
I am thinking of you daily and praying for you and your precious family. He is in this fire with you and will NEVER leave your side. I know you already know that, because your faith is such a testimony to me and everyone reading this.
"If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it"
Daniel 3:17
"Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel"
Phil 1:12
Thank you for praising His name and using this for the good of His kingdom, even now when this is not the news you wanted to hear and it would be easy for bitterness and anger to come. You are a true Disciple and I am going to continue to pray and believe for total healing for you with the same faith you have shown. Blessed Be His Name!
We love you in Fayetteville,
Alicia Brooks
Kim,
I can't tell you how many times I have opened up my bible to Luke 5:18-20. "And, behold, men brought in a bed a man which was taken with a palsy: and they sought means to bring him in, and to lay him before him. And when they could not find by what way they might bring him in because of the multitude, they went upon the housetop, and let him down through the tiling with his couch into the midst before Jesus. And when he saw their faith, he said unto him, 'Man, thy sins are forgiven thee'.
The life application bible states: it wasn't the sick man's faith that impressed Jesus, but the faith of his friends. Jesus responded to their faith and healed the man.
I kept wondering about this verse because my thought was, Kim has faith in God. Today I started wondering about the paralyzed man. I wondered how long he had been paralyzed. Had he been paralyzed from birth, had he been paralyzed for the last 3 years, what was the deal? I wondered if like you, he loved God and knew that his eternal future was secure. I wondered if this paralyzed man believed that God had spoken a word to his heart, believed that he would be healed and it didn't happen like he thought. Maybe he resigned himself to the fact that he would never be 'cured' but that he would continue to love God and make the best of his situation.
What person in the earthly realm wouldn't have all those thoughts? There's a lot about this man's story that we don't know. But I will tell you this sweet Kim, this man's friends were no different than your friends. I along with countless others have faith that God will heal you. God is the same today as he was yesterday. He will do for you what he did for this paralyzed man.
Jeremiah 32:27 says, 'Behold, I am the Lord , the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me'
I love you and I continue to pray believing!
A sister in Christ
Kim,
It was so nice seeing you at San Francisco Bread on Wednesday. I haven't been able to get you out of my mind. You are so full grace and peace and a favorite scripture of mine runs through my mind when I think of you. Just wanted to share it. It is found in Romans 5:2-5..."And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."
I love this scripture..it is very comforting to me. I am praying for your physical, emotional, and spiritual healing. You are loved and are an inspiration to many.
Love,
Dana Hogue
dana@hoguefarms.com
Kim!
I pray that God will heal you! I am praying for you everyday!
Love,
Anonymous
Kim,
We were so, so, sad to hear the news. We love you all so much! You are in our prayers EVERY day. I will call you soon! I love you.
Karen Black
Kim, you are still on the prayer list at McCrory United Methodist Church. Rest assured that there are still people there who remember you as a little girl and loved you and your family. We continue to pray for your healing....for your family....for God's grace for us all.
Ada Heath
Kim,
You and I have not met, but I am close to someone who loves you dearly and am privileged to watch the work your and Mark's testimony has done in the faith of her husband, who has been like a brother to me since we were kids. I'm so thankful for that growth, because I love him so and have wanted him to not just have eternal salvation but to know of the life transformation available in Christ. Like most of us, we need to see it's unnatural reality in the life of believers we trust. You and Mark are trusted, because your faith is transparent and authentic(warts, questions, and all). Thank God for those like you who "Forget what is behind and strain toward what is ahead, pressing on to the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:14. Even though the goal gets foggy, I'm sure, remember that God "knows the plans he has for you, plans to prosper and not harm you,"--Jeremiah 29:11. Our church, like so many, prays continually for you and your family.
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